Thursday, October 30, 2008

HERE'S MY PROBLEM...

OKAY HERE'S MY DELIMA...YOU ALL KNOW HUBBY AND I WERE NOT LIVING TOGETHER FOR A WHILE..RIGHT? WELL THEN HE CAME BACK A FEW MONTHS LATER...SO, HE WAS STILL SICK AND DEPRESSED AND I SAID I WOULD HELP HIM GET BETTER...SO I HAVE..HE SAYS HE IS 95% BETTER...GREAT RIGHT..

WELL, IT ISN'T..HE STILL DOES NOTHING AROUND HERE..NOT A DISH DOES NOT PICK UP AFTER HIMSELF..HE TRIED A HUNGER STRIKE..BROKE THAT ONE..LAYED ON THE COUCH SLEEPING..BROKE THAT..ETC....

NOW THE DEIMLA..HE SAYS " HE LIKES ME, BUT NOT EVERY THING I DO..FAIR ENOUGH..RIGHT..HE SAYS HE LOVES ME..OKAY...BUT HE SAYS HE IS NOT IN LOVE WITH ME....Hmmmmmm..NOW WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR 25 YEARS....

WE HAD A TO DO ABOUT THIS 22 YEAR OLD GIRL THAT WAS CALLING HERE AND TEXTING HIM...THAT WAS PUT A STOP TO..THEY WORK TOGETHER...OKAY...

LONG STORY ABOUT HER...SHE IS SAID TO HAVE SAVED HIS LIFE WHEN HE DIDN'T LIVE HER..SO, I AM NOT WORTHY....BUT, NOW I HAVE SAVED HIS LIFE...GO FIGURE...

SO,HE TELLS ME EVERYDAY THAT HE LOVES ME....WHAT WOULD YOU MAKE OUT OF THIS? I AM CONFUSED...WE GO TO HIS THERAPIST TODAY....I HAVE ALOT TO SAY AND WILL FIND OUT THINGS...DOES THIS MEAN WHEN HE SAYS HE LOVES ME THAT WE ARE FRIENDS..LIKE YOU SAY I LOVE YOU TO A GOOD FRIEND?

DOES THIS MEAN I CAN LOOK AROUND FOR SOMEONE ELSE..AM I WASTING MY TIME? SEE, I HAVE KEPT MY WALL UP TOO...DON'T WANT TO TAKE A CHANCE ON HIM...HE'S TOO FLIPPY....ALTHOUGH WE WERE OUR RINGS AND HAVE NEVER TAKEN THEM OFF...WHAT DOES THAT MATTER IF WE ARE JUST FRIENDS RIGHT? WRONG? SO CONFUSED....

THERE IS SO MUCH MORE INVOLVED IN THIS JUST CAN'T WRITE IT DOWN...HIS MOM AND DAD NEVER ACCEPTED ME FROM DAY ONE...THEY DON'T CALL THE HOUSE THEY CALL HIS CELL PHONE..BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING..DESPITE HIM TELLING THEM THAT IT WAS NOT TRUE...SO, I TOLD HIM FUCK HIS MOM AND DAD...I DON'T NEED TO PROVE MYSELF ANYMORE..I HAVE TRYED THAT FOR 25 YRS....THEY CAN ALL GO TO HELL IN A HAND BASKET...HIS BROTHERS WIFE NEVER COMES AROUND EITHER...THEY TALK BADLY ABOUT HER TOO....SO THE BEAT GOES ON....

ANY WAY..I JUST NEEDED TO VENT....AND SEE WHAT YOU ALL THINK....

3 comments:

garnett109 said...

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MISSY said...

From what you have said here, it sounds like a waste of time to me. Don't try to save something just because of the amount of time that has already been put into it, don't waste any more of your time! It was given a fair shot, right? Over 20 years worth of chances. I would move on before any more of your time is wasted. *M*

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Missie said...

Don't you think that when we've been married as long as we have been, me 20, you 25, that the love you have for each other kinda changes? It's hard for to explain, but i think after all these years, you do become more like best friends.